Trey Anastasio of Phish has opened up about his drug and alcohol addiction, and how he hit his lowest point before the band split in 2004. From his recollection of events, it sounds like he was out of his mind.

"I'd let everyone down, which was my worst nightmare ever," Antastasio told Rolling Stone about the period when he hit rock bottom. "[Phish keyboardist] Page [McConnell] pulled me aside and said, 'For 20 years, I've had 100 percent faith that you would lead us onstage, and it's always made me feel good. For the first time, I'm not so sure I feel that anymore."

Ouch! That was certainly a wake up call for the frontman.

He went even deeper with his revelations, saying, "The first time I tried cocaine, I fell asleep . . . There was always drinking, pot, psychedelics. I'm sure there was a lot of self-medicating, self-discovery going on. Once that line was crossed, it sucked all the life out of the music and relationships."

Yep, that sounds like addiction to us. It takes over everything. At the 2004 farewell Phish gig, the singer looked to be nodding off onstage. He was pulled over for erratic driving in 2006 and found with prescription drugs not in his name. He spent a year-plus in limited-mobility treatment and did community service, which included unsavory tasks like cleaning toilets.

"I spent 24 hours a day thinking about nothing but Phish," Anastasio recalled. "Then the next thing you know you wake up in a jail cell with a guard in a blue suit standing outside - a Phish fan saying, 'Dude, oh, my God, this is so weird.' I said, 'Yeah, it's weird. Go away now.'"

Fortunately, he's fully recovered and strongly opposed to drugs, saying he "f---ing" hates them. Plus, Phish are back together, and he's able to look back at that period of his life with some newfound clarity.

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